Daylly journal.

How I feel about my job.
Hello to all.

I know it has been a while, but I have a lot to vent about this time. First it is my job. I am getting tired of doing the same thing every day. I either get tot do CMA which is cable manufacturing assembly or I am doing nothing. I feel that is not rite. I am tired of hearing the stories of how they are tryuing to do this or that. I think that if I am there and we do not have any work I should be able to use the comoputer just like everyone eklse. The only problem is JAWS is very expensive. There is not much chance of getting it in the work area if I am the only one there in that area who uses it. I think it is time that sometrhing should be done. I see that I will have to call my VSVI and let them know what is going on.

Now I still have one more thing to vent about before I go. I just got a bookport a few days ago. Some of you may or may not know what it is. I can only explain it as a portible reading device for blind people. I received on Monday and was trying to hook up the suposid cable that came with it. Well I found out with some help ofcorse that the cable is not a standered USB cable. I am now trying to get a hold of APH which i the name of the compony to see about having the cable replaced. My dad seems to think that a normal usb cable would not work in my bookport. I how ever think it will so I am trying to get some more info on this. I am very fustrated because I feel that I should not have to play phone tag with a company that I have not had any troble with.

That is my vent for thwe day. Feel free to read and comment. I will go now abnd deal with other problems.

Matthew

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: home

Its another hot one
Hey you guessed it. It is another hot one out there. It reached 91 today. It gets hot in my bedroom as our centeral air just does not reach my room very well. It is going to be a hot summer I think.

Well beside that point my feelings for my friend just do not leave me aloan,. I just kep thinking of her and how we might be able to some how get together just hang out. I have this feeling that it will work, but then again I just do not know how my work scedual will work out in a few months. I jusrt keep preaing that it will work out some how. I think it would be intresting if we could get togerther.

I guess that is aboyut all I haved for now. I shall write more tomorrow if all goes well.

Current Mood: hot
Current Music: broks and done

My birthdaty
Hello. Today I went out for my bierthday which was on Saturday. I went to Out Back. It was very good. I hsad a ribi stake wwith garlic mashed potatos. We also ordered the blumin onion as an apatizer. They also gave us a salad. The food was very good.

We also got dizirt, but I could not eat all of mine.

I had a chance to visit with my mom yesterday and We hunfg out with my brother and his kidas and we had a cook out with hamburgers and hotdogs. It was all very good.

That is pretty much all I did on my biirthday. I do still have a present, but I will not be getting it for at least a week, because my dad does not have the monety for it rite now.

I hope you will enjoy reading thiis piost.

Current Mood: full

My day
i guess that is all I really have for now. I will try to update more as soon as I can.

My day today was very long and slow or at least it seemed that wauy. I did not have any work to do at all today, so I was just sitting at a table thinking of my friend and missing her. I really wish there was some way to visit her some time, but it would be hard to do. She lives so far away. I am not sure what we would do even if it worked out. We could get a movie or something, but I am not sure what.

Current Mood: sad

What a day
Good evening friends. Today was another one of thoughs days. It seemed really long today. I had a really strang thought cross my mind today.
I talked to my friend who I have feelings for still. I told her I was thinking of her lastnight and she asked me if I was thinking of her as a friebnd. I really did not know what to say. I was so lost for words. I just kep thinking of that all dayy. I just keep hoping that one day she will see that I will love her no matter what. It is really hard on me lately. My feelings are not dimishing at all infact they are getiing stronger every day. I don't know how some people do it everyday. A long distence relationship is one thing, but this feels worse. I cry inside every night. I have to use my emagenation and pretend that she is here, but even that does not come close to having there really person there now how much you care.

I guess I better go before I really do cry both inside and out. I hope someone out there understands how I am feeling rite now.

Current Mood: lonely

Still feeling sad.
Hello.

Yes I am still feeling sad I know it has been a while, but I thought I better update everyone so people don't think I droped off the face of the earth. I guess I should start by saying that I am writing on my laptop in my dads computer room. I have it here because my dads computer 8is 8in the shop having the motherboard replaced. It had been fried from a possible power sirge or something of that nature.

Now for thoughes of you who may or may night know. I have for some time had feelings for a really good friend of mine whom I went to school with. I last talked to her olast week. She is doing good. how ever I start to feel totaly different when ever I am talk9ing to her both on msn or on the phone. I just want to cry and then it is all I can feel if I talk to her. I am really hanging on to the friendship that we have. I feel that If I do so some how with some luck we might be something more. I am not holding my breath, but that is my hope or someone else will clome along at some point. I think I might just call her sometime today and see what is going on. She was on msn earyer. I am not sure if she is now or not I will have to check and see.

I guess that is my update for n9ow. I hope to maybe start updating more often.

I hope everyone has a good day. This is matthew signing off.

Current Mood: sad

My life
Hello again readers. I know it has been a lo9ng time, but not much has been worth posting about.

I am now working at the workshop that my grandma worked at before she died. I reall like it and the people are nice. I did have a meeting with a number of people today. It sounds like I will be able to get a job in the community which is what I was hoping any way. I am getting some help with supportive imploiment. I hope It all goes well. I am hoping I will get a chance to use some of my reseptiones skills. That is really all I have to say for now.

I did check out a new website today. the link is www.disabledfriends.com. It looks like it is some kind of dating site for disable people. I signed up and It looks pretty easy to do if you can figure it out. That is about it for me. I hope you have a good time reading this post. Let me know if you had problems with the site and I will see if I can help.

Have a good night.

Current Mood: good

My first day at work
Hello readers.

Today was my first day at work. I started at colyen juleyet. It is a workshop whare my grandma worked for years before she died. I saw some people that grandma new well and they would all ask if I was her grandson. I got to meet a lot of new people which is great. They all had some kind of disibility of some form oranother.

There was even a guy named jeff who had to ware oxygen all the3 time. He has a portible tank that he would use and an electric one and when the portible tank was low it would switch over to the electric tank.

Today we had to put together some kind of meddle gaget to hold up the wirer for a tail gate of a picktruck. I had to learn in steps on how it was done. I soon get the hang of it. I always think it is intresting having someone teaching you how to do something when you are blind. I think it was cool and I think I will like it there. I guess tomorrow will be another suprie for me as I do not know what I will have to do when I get to work. You just never know. I hope you had a good time reading. I will keep you posted on what happens tomorrow if I remember.

Current Mood: happy

my new job starts Wednesday
Hello again to all my friends. I have just received word that I will start working on Wednesday. I will be at the place whare my grandma used to work before she died. My MRDD consaultent will be there and I am really looking forward to it. It will give me a chance to be out of the house for a while. I will start at 8 a.m. and be home around 3 p.m. It will really be nice to be working durring the day. I am very exsited about working.

That is my updated entry for today. feel tfree to leave a comment and I will look at it as soon as I can.

Current Mood: excited

Hello readers
Hello readers. I know it has been awhile since I have updated my journal, but I have just been forgetting to do so. I am glad to be writing again. I will try to keep it updated as much as piossible.

I have received word that there is a job opening at the workshop whare my grandma used to work before she died. I am still waiting to hear more on that. I just sent the paper work back last week so I should know more in a few weeks. I am really looking forward to it so that I will be out of the house more often since there is not much going on rite now. Just trying to keep myself busy durring the dday. I am still praying for that special person to come into my life. I do have feelings for someone that I do not want to mention there name so as not to imberes them if they hapen to read this poste. I hope I will be able to find a way to tell them how I feel about them. I guess I will go and try to post again tomorrow but until then have a good night.

Current Mood: gloomy

Strange phone call
Hello to all my readers. I know that I have not writen in a while, but not much has been going on in the past few days. I did have a very strange phone call this after noon. It hadto do with my jfw soft ware mationets agreement. I was told by some lady that I need to pay 128.10. I founds because It says that they have my invoice from may 23rd. I sent a message to syndi smith to see if she had any information. I will check later to see if she got my message and responded,. I am going to pay if it is necessary, but I thought I would be safe than sorry. I guess that is all there is to say for now.

Current Mood: scared

Good morning friends.
Good morning friends and readers. I know I have not posted in a few days, but it is not very active. I really only have one thing to share and that is that I finialy got to see the new jonny cash movy last week. It was very good. I would hope they work on a audio discription version for blind version.

I guess I should mention how I am feeling rite now. I am kind of feeling like I could cry at time. I have so much going on that I just wish I had someone special person in my life to love. I feel like every one but me has someone in there life to love. It is kind of hard to explain, but ever since my friend rhonda has reapeared It has been different. I talk to her almost every day or every night, but I guess the truth of the matter is that she is a flame that will never die no matter what happens. I do not want to stop taljing to her and I think there are times that she does not want to stop talking either, but as loanstar says everythings changed except they way I feel about her. I guess I should stop rambeling and get this post up but I just had to get this off my mind.

Thanks for reading.

Current Mood: okay

Thanks giving day
Hi Friends. I hope everyone that is reading had a good thanks giving today. I know I did and we had a lot of food.
We had a lot of turky and both stove top and regular stuphing. I had only ione oplate at dinner and it was enough to fill me up. There was even plenty of disirt as well.

I also found out today that my 2-year-old nephew knocked over a pill bottel with some pills in it. When my brother's girlfriend found one was missing she though that he ate one, but no one knows for sure. He has to stay in the hospital all night for obsorvation to make sure that if he did swallow one or eat which ever you may call it that he does not end up having any effects that could kill him. I just hope that he is ok. I'm sure he will be fine, but it is good that they are going to be safe than sorry. He should be home tomorrow if all goes well.

It is really ashame that he did not get to eat dinner with us this year, but I just hope that all goes well for him so he can come home tomorrow. I know it is not much fun. I guess that is all for now. My thoughts are with him and his mom who is also staying at the hospital with him.

Current Mood: scared

Thanks giving is here.
Hi friends,
Thanks giving is here it is hard to beleive. I know that we are going to have lots of food.
My brother and his girlfriend is bringing there kids for dinner. I always find that just to stay home for dinner can be a lot more easyer. I am really looking forward to it. I just wonder if it is going to be cold.

It is another cold one again. I just felt because it is cold it would be a pirfect day to take some time and write in my journal. So here I am.

I guess that is all there is to say for now. Happy thanks giving to all my readers and don't eat too much LOL!

Current Mood: happy

My day
Hello. to all. I had a very intresting day today. I first went to my NFB meeting.We talked about the new voating machines that were used on voating here in ohio. I guess it did not work out very well because the machines did not work. It is to my understanding that there was a part missing and that is what caused the problems.

After I got home from my meeting than I went with my dad and step mom to my brothers girl friend's house for a birthday party. Her son just turned 2 last week. He had a very good party and got a lot of pressents.

We were going to see a movy with my grandpa, but he was not feeling well so we had to cancel, but we are going to try and go in a few days if all goes well. I just hope that he gets better as it is not fun being sick at all.

This concludes my day. I hope to write in a day or two if anything else happens.

Current Mood: hopeful

winter is here.
Hello to all. I would like to first apallojize for so many miss spellings in my first entry. I was using mazila firefox with jfw 7 and my jaws was not keeping up with what I was typing. I will try to do a little better on future entries from now on.

Here in ohio winter has arrived. It was very cold again today. That is the bad news, how ever it is going to warmer tomorrow, so that will be nice. It is only going to last for one day though.

My youngist son of my oldist brother's birthday was yesterday. His party is on Sonday afternoon. He is 2 years old. I hope he has a good birthday party. I will write again in a few days to let you know how it went.

Current Mood: happy

I'm back.
Good afternoon to all of my readers. I am back on another cold day. Winter is here in ohio rather we want it or not. I guess it is a good thing we have centeral heating or it would very cold. It does get very cold here in my room. It is usualy better by the afternoon. It is not as windy as it was yesterday so that was nice. Not much else is going on rite now. My step mom had the day off while my dad had to work,. I really don't have much else to write at this time, but if something else comes up today I will be sure to poste an update.

Current Mood: happy

What happened today
Good evening to all of my friends. This is my first entry. Feel free to coment on any of my entries. I am working on getting myself a pacmate from freedomscientific. It is going to cost my a lot of money. I am on a search for funnding to help me so that can purches it. I hope to hear from the american assoieation of musitions to find out what they come up with as far as who can help me out. They do not usualy do this so they are doing some research to see if they can find someone to helop me out.

Today it got very cold and windy and has been that way all day. I think tomorrow it is going to be even colder,. I am glad that I don't have to go out in it tomorrow. It is a little cold for my liking.

One finel note I qill mention is I heard from my mom this afternoon. She says it is reaching the 70s durring the day, but it is cold at night. She is living in navata. There is one advantage of that and that is she does not have to wonder about the snow. I was told that she is going to come out in the spring when the weather is warmer. Thaqt is all I have to say for now. Again feel free to coment and let me know what you think. This my first entry and I hope to add more newer onse as time goes by.

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